Casually wrong

Over the last couple of months I have been involved in a casual relationship with an airline pilot. He flies long haul all over the world. At first the relationship was great, and suited me as I work strange hours for London escorts services.The problem I have is that I have fallen in love with him but I am not so sure that he is love with me. As a matter of fact, I am pretty sure that he isn’t and most of my escorts in London friends think that all he wants is a casual relationship with any pretty girl.

I am not an escort but I work as a receptionist. That means that we work in shifts as well, and most of the time we are extremely busy and have to do long hours. It suited me at first going out with this guy as our hours seemed to coordinate. he did not mind that I worked for a London escorts agency and quite often laughed about it. The truth is that, that working as part of London escorts services is as serious job as any other and can be hard work. It is nice when someone comes around and takes you out to dinner.

I could kick myself for falling in love but I just couldn’t help. He is such a nice guy and treats me really nicely. My London escorts friends like him as well but most of them think that he is not that serious about our relationship. The girls keep telling me that it is very difficult to form permanent relationships when you work for the London escorts service. First of all the hours can be a nuisance and then it is the general perception of the what we do. I appreciate that it must be difficult to relate to.

At the moment he is away but I will have to do something about our relationship. I am actually beginning to feel as though I am getting hurt and I hate feeling like this. My escorts in London friends are fully behind me and says he should declare his proper intentions. Maybe he also wants the relationship to become more serious, but I don’t know what I am going to do if he is not in love with me. At least I know that I will have my escorts in London friends to look after me if it all goes pear shaped.

Aren’t men difficult? Sometimes I feel that they lead you on just so they can have sex with you. It is okay having friends with benefits but casual relationships don’t always work out. But they are still painful when they finish. We so often forget that we all have feelings which can hurt but whilst everything is on the up, we choose to ignore them. I know that I maybe in for an emotional shock and all of my friends at the London escorts agency are standing by for what we in the industry call the “fall out”.

Dandi Lucas